Cookies Cookies Cookies

I had all intentions of getting back on track today.

Breakfast was half a pear (the squirrel ate the other half) and half a pumpkin muffin.



Lunch was a turkey sandwich with cucumber and my guacamole. If I eat plain avocado sometimes I feel a little sick... Now I just mashed one up, added some spices, and used it kinda like mayo. This sandwich was so good!


And then I got carried away... I had a cookie swap to go to this afternoon so I baked 3 dozen cookies. A bite of this led to a bite of that!

I made a dozen chocolate chip, peanut butter, oatmeal...

And 2 dozen snickerdoodles...

Dinner ended up being leftover pinwheels from the cookie swap. Isn't it funny how a wrap tastes so much better cut into pretty little wheels?

The cookie swap was the first time I met a lot of the ladies in my husband's new squadron. As we went around the room and everyone introduced themselves I found myself feeling sad. All of the women there have been in the squadron quite awhile. They've been through it all but yet they seemed so strong. Maybe I'm just having a hard time adjusting to the military lifestyle. It has just begun for us and I'm all ready for it to be over with. My husband hasn't even been on his first long deployment. I'm having a hard time dealing with the unknown. It is hard not being able to plan your life. Half the time I don't even know if he'll be home for dinner. I learned at my Bible study that bitterness is a sin. Did you know that? I have tried really hard to just let things go but just letting things go is not easy. I've been in this anti-Marine Corps funk for awhile now. I hate the feeling because I love my husband. I am thankful he has a good job. The military has been GOOD to us.

Talking to the ladies definitely made me think about the future. Will I be this strong in a couple years? Will I be able to talk about my husband being deployed without tearing up? Will I be the one hosting a cookie swap and introducing myself to young terrified wives. Who knows what the future will hold. Needless to say, I left with a giant bag of delicious cookies and a lot on my mind.